Reminiscing Africa

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The harmonica's twang blended with the melodious flow of a mandolin creating a most glorious tune. The day fell asleep early, as usual in that country side, creating a serene backdrop for the glorious tune. The tune was carried by three young men, eager for an adventure in the newly visited land of Africa. A common sight in those first days, three boys jamming to random blues tunes in the cabin, provided amble entertainment for all who passed. A passing moment was not the only which was graced by those melodies. The trio walked up a nearby hill and began to play for an elderly gentleman. They soon discovered that this man was not only an ordinary gentleman, but was the previous ambassador from Zambia to USA. The trio was ecstatic. The night crept on and the trio went to their respective places of rest. The Sabbath had been good, and good day thus ended. 

First Day in Africa

Africa. The word that has never ceased to leave my mind since December of last year. Now I am in it. Bathing in the reality of its all surrounding presence, there is no escaping the present here. Is it what I expected? I can not remember what I expected. It is like a surreal dream that I am finally realizing is a dream no more. No longer will I see my friends, family and others on a regular basis as previously was done. Saying bye to those I left was more difficult then hoped, but for every gain is a cost. 

Arriving at the location, Riverside Farms, there was displayed a picture of supreme simplistic beauty. The first creak of the door revealed a light so pure and was filtered through the serene Zambian landscape. I knew I was in the place I was called to be. 

We did not do much anything today except realize how jet-lag really feels. 

None Left Behind

The chill of the night began to edge its icy fingers across the faces of all present. A boy was seen struggling in the arms of a young man. His struggle was one for freedom and liberation. He struggled for freedom, not from the arms but from life-he wished to die. The young man held on to the boy, pity was in his eyes. There were no words of remorse, condemnation, or anger spoken to the boy, yet the boy fought for what he wanted most. The boy began to curse the young man. He cursed the place were he was at. He cursed life, and he cursed God. His heart was scathed with the embers of hate, and love was drained away. The boy screamed again and again that if only given one chance he would experience love. No, not the love of the heart, but his love of death. All across the surrounding area echoed his cries, his curses. All around heard of his want to go back in, find a bed sheet, and die by it around his neck. The young man held him tight that evening saddened at the sight of such misery. The young man was saddened not at the cursing of peace but by the ignorance of peace. No longer had the nights icy chill only crept on all present, it had crept within the boy.

Peace is not the knowledge of a better life, it is the inward reality of a better life now. Wishing for a better tomorrow never brings a better now. There is no tomorrow. Humanity searches for peace and finds desolation. Every attempt to find peace in a better tomorrow is another bed sheet around the neck. There is no better tomorrow. To curse the present is to live a curse. How long will humanity wander in the wilderness of want when pastures of peace are all around? 

The chill of the night was then shattered by a wisp of calm. Providence saw it fit to place serenity in the house of distress and serenity destroyed that house. The boy surrendered that night to the force of peace. He did not always remain in peace after that, but who does? His disposition even worsened after a time, yet in that moment no one was left behind. That is, peace left no one behind. All had that inner changing of the heart to be content with now; peace, the satisfaction of embracing what is now and realizing that tomorrow is but a dream.

Conversations with St. Brown

To Elijah, the voice of God was not something he had to guess about, it was not a relic of past events, he knew the voice of God like he knew a friends. After all, his name did mean, "my God is Yahweh," and he believed that he was the last remaining worshiper of that God. However, when threatened with death by the one he once defied, he ran. He came to a mountain and searched for the voice of God. There on the mountain, Elijah witnessed great manifestations of Gods presence. He had just seen these very manifestations not to long ago. On Mt. Carmel, there was fire, and God was in it; a great storm and God was in it. But now, where was God? He was not in the great storm, or the earthquake or the fire. Elijah was trembling in the stillness of godlessness when the silence was pierced by a still small voice. And at the sound of a low whisper Elijah wrapped his face, and God was in the whisper. 

        During finals week a friend, who I call St. Brown, sat me down and said, "Does God ever speak to you?" I acknowledged that He did. St. Brown was unsure of how that happened. "But does He actually? How do you know it is not just another feeling?" It took a little while to ponder this idea, and it troubled me. Yes, I knew God spoke to me, but how would I ever explain how I felt. The voice of God is an intensely personal experience and cannot be simply put into words. St. Brown went on to say, "I have concluded that God does not speak to humanity, because of sin He cannot. In place of His voice, God has left a roadmap to lead humanity back to Him, the Bible, and by reading we will one day hear the voice of God again." How was I to explain to him that an experience with God cannot be confined to words? That until someone really experiences God, he will never understand God? 

        We all have experienced God. There is not goodness apart from God. I do not have a perfect image of God, and I do not always hear or listen to His voice. We often search in the great manifestations of life's events to hear God, but most times, He is not there. In the storms of sadness, the earth shaking moments of unexpected tragedy, or the fires of pain, we search for God; in those moments we wish to hear His voice. However, it is in the stillness of the mind, the personal indwelling of a whisper that God is often heard. Sometimes it is so quite we miss it. His voice, a whisper so low, yet a peace so sweet. How was I to explain this if St. Brown had never felt it? Sure, I have never awakened to a low voice parting the skies and talking to me. I have never heard God speaking in an empty room to me as I would hear a man speaking to me in an empty room. But God is not man, and He is not limited to the ways man communicates. 

So instead of trying to argue, I concluded with a simple line. "St. Brown, I know I hear God's voice. I am sorry you do not, but I am content. If you are at peace with where you are at with God, then stay there, but if you are not at peace, search for His voice and you will hear Him."

Our Need-Conversations with St. Brown

Around the table the discussion flew, but the ideas which the discussion picked up never seemed to land in a place that made sense. The topic was the church and its inability to reach the world. The question was brought up again and again, "What must we do differently?" New suggestions, opinions and statements came up each time but none satisfied the question. Off to the corner of the room I stood contemplating what was being said and was earnestly seeking a solution. The dim light room provided a serene atmosphere and there I sat in the stillness of the moment restless for truth. The low hum of the conversation was a soothing soundtrack to my thoughts and as the stillness and peace enveloped itself around me, the answer dawned in my mind. Prayer.
We have the doctrine, the truth as a church. We know the Bible, and have our own prophet, yet our knowledge is proven useless by the facts of reality. The church in North America is dying. Our growth rate worldwide is grossly shadowed by the population growth rate. Young people are leaving the church at incredible rates and we have no ability to stop them. If we know the truth, why do people leave the church. We have emotional drive in evangelistic series, in youth rallies, in week of prayers, but the numbers still dwindle.
What we lack however, is not truth it is life. The life of the early church was conceived in the Holy Spirit. The Spirit gave a life of fire, a fire that raged in the hearts of humanity for the salvation of humanity. But the Spirit did not leave, God did not say that it was for the early church only. Can we not have the same Spirit that the early disciples had? We do not have the same Spirit, this is evident, but why? The disciples had the life, the fire, because they asked for it. It says in Acts 1 that the disciples came together in prayer. After the ascension of their Master, they gathered together as one and prayed for the promise of the Spirit, the promise of life. The promise was given. The Spirit breathed into its nostrils and the church became a living soul.
We lack the unity of the early church. We have week of prayers with little or no prayer, church services with only a small portion for prayer,our  daily lives lived for the pursuit of happiness but lacking prayer. Prayer is gone. We have lost it and in turn have lost ourselves. The life of the church depends on the church to connect with life. We pray not for life, for Spirit, and we have not life, or Spirit.
As we parted ways that night, it all began to make sense. Our doctrine is not the problem, not even our bigotry or judgementalism, these may be problems yes, but it is not the reason for the lifelessness of our church. We have ceased to pray as a church but we continue to hope for a better life within the church. The solution to our church problems is a simple one, not a change in doctrine, or church format, or even ecumenicalism, its prayer, and when we pray we shall see this body of a church rise to life, and it shall be on fire with the Spirit.

The Balance of Anarchic Morality

Justice is blind; in one hand she holds a sword and in the other she holds a balance. Law is a lot like the balance in the hand of “Justice.” There is no set reason for law except the common sense of establishing order. The laws of the land are to create a blalance of life and to prevent chaos. Laws are enacted though different methods depending on the nation involved and are enforced using different methods as well. When considering the international theater, there is no central government or decision making body that creates obligatory and binding laws to be followed by all world nations. This is anarchy. However, without a a concept of right and wrong, the world would erupt in chaos. Every nation recognizes intentionally or unintentionally a binding law of morality that prevents them from destroying the world. The law of morality is an integral part of human exsistence and should be cultivated on an individual level to live a satisfied life. International law should not be a guiding force in the affairs of the world. A law instituted for all humanity to follow would result in the inevitable suppression of rights to certain minorities. Binding obligations between certain nations are benificial and needed at times, but international law would negatively impact the world and ultimatly lead to chaos. The current reliance on an integral sense of morality is the safest “international law” humanity can depend on for the security of national stability. 

All Was Vanity

That hindsight is 20/20 is an accurate assumption when realized to late.

Card in, pin dialed, acces granted, cash, always more cash, after all it sustained life. Cash is king and the old man seemed to make it a motto pasted to the pricy bumper. The old man's son was saddened at the thought of his fathers condition. So old, the breath of death about to breath its reality into his nostrils, did his father not get it. "Old man, your time is up, the time has come to move on, another season of life is through." When it was all said and done, what did the old man have? A fancy car, money, a caring son that perhaps wanted his money, and the warm welcome of an unknown reality six feet under ground.

To be born, what is received? Breath, light, warmth if lucky, and the promise of death. To be born is vanity.

To mature, what is received? Recognition, responsibility, restriction, failure, and the promise of death. To mature is vanity.

To increase in wealth, what is received? Stuff, broken friendships, increase of friendships, a miserable spouse, and the promise of death. To increase in wealth is vanity.

To grow old, what is received? Memories of the past life of failure, a reminder of the promise of death. To grow old is vanity.

All is vanity said the preacher and he said it right. But what is this end, this promise of death. When the promise is fulfilled, is that vanity? The one decided course in life that happens, we avoid. But, that all is hopeless is not the way to address our predicament. Death is conquered.

The apostles of Acts where exuberant and exceedingly joyful over the resurrection of Jesus because Jesus over came death. He has now given us a life to live with purpose, a life that is not promised an eternal unconsciousness  It is a purpose devoid of vanity, where the useless existence of humanity has been replace with hope, hope in the resurrection.